bz sgt ker..+ puase + balik raye..(^_^)

da lame xtulis blog nih..
sjak akhir2 ni, rase cm xde mase lak nk buke blog ni..
cm bz sgt jer..
buat ape la ek smpai xsempat nk login sekejap pun..
nk kate bz, mmg ler bz..
tp tp wat2 rilek jer..
keje pn byk pending lg ni..huhu

ape2 pun, arini,mlm ni sempat la gak buke sekejap kan..
kalo ikutkan, byk bnde nk cter ni..
byk sgt bnde yg berlaku sepanjang bln pose thun ni..(^_^)

aritu, g buke pose same2 dgn ex-schoolmate...
buke kat dataran s alam..
even xdela rmai pn yg dtg..
adela dlm 12org kot...
tp best la gak..(^_^)

bdk2 ni same je perangai gler2 cam dolu2..
rase cm stil dak2 skola lg..
mcm stil lg kat hostel..rindunyerrr!!!
wpun jumpe sekjap jer,
mcm2 cter kuar...hehe

pastu, bln2 pose ni,
jrg tau g beli mknan kat luar...
masak kat uma..(^_^)
tp member2 ler yg rajin masak nyer..
kiter tlg abiskan jer..hak3...
mcm2 menu kuar...
terror gak bdk2 ni msak..
bleh join chan keong kitchen tv show kat 8tv tu..ahaks!
pg2 suma bgun sahur..
adela dlm 2,3 kali jer kot xbgun sahur..huhu
sahur pun mkn mewah tu...mcm2 lauk ade..
itadakimasu!!

emmm..lg 2 ari da nk nk balik uma da..
balik raye..bestnyerr..xsbar rase..(^_^)
thun ni xbeli tket bas pn..
rase malas lak nk beli tket bas sejak 2menjak ni..
mane x nye, thun lepas bleh plak tertinggal bas time nk balik raye tu..
sape x haru..nsib baik ler ade tket lg kan esoknyer..
kalo x, naye jer..huhu

ehem2..
raye thun ni igt nk wat sumthing special sket..
sumthing yg pnah kiter wat selame raye2 thun lepas..
jeng3...hehe..(^_^)

xbalik raye lg ni,
mcm2 da pk utk prepare for ari raye raye diz year..
balik ni nk kne jahit langsir la plak...
thun lepas br je tukar...
tp sbb da ade org baik ati belikan kain langsir,
so jahit jela nnti..huhu

waa!!
cmner nk balik ni...
keje byk delay..
byknye keje nk kne pk n siapkan biler balik raye nnti..
waa!!
xpe2..pelan2 kayuh...hehe
yg penting, raye thun ni, kne enjoy dlu..(^_^)

everything..i like to remain this way..(^_^)

emmm...(^_^)
skrg ni..suma nyer dah berubah..
even xbyk yg berubah sbnarnyer..
tp kt rase selesa with all that happen around me..(^_^)
bukan ler rase seronok...
just cmfortable..
coz i started to get used with all this new status..
emm??
status ape lak ni..??
married ker..hehhe
ish3..merepek ape lak ni..
xde ape sbnarnyer..
it just i started to be brave to face all the possibilities...
insyaallah..
kan best kalo keadaan bleh trus remain like this...(^_^)

stay away from my life!!!!!

why me??

what the h_ _ _ going on??
wht's wrong with me..??
why u drive me to feel this kind of scared..??
if only u know..
know that how scared i am...
scared to sleep...
n sumtimes i even scared to closed my eyes..
even just for a while..
it's not becoz i'm pretending to be hypocrite here..
coz i love to sleep..
but u make me scared..
scared to close my eyes..
coz everytime i wake up or i open my eyes,
i just know that u r no longer by my side..
that make me feels soo scared..
did u ever know that..??
why u keep doing all that towards me..??
what is my fault..??
why u keep come n go..??
did i make any mistake...
n even if i do,
did the mistake deserved all that punishment..??
did u do that on purpose..??
or u just don't realize that u r punishing me rite now..??
u know me rite..
u know me..very well..
i'm sure of it..
but why u pretend as if u don't know anything about me..??
why??
can u explain??
do u know that its really hard for me to face n go through all these..??
did u realize..??
or is it just a test..??
no..i don't think so..
i know u mean it...u really do...i'm sure..
but pleaze..make an end to it..
coz i just can't bear to face it anymore..
pleaze..:'-(

i hate u!!
even millions of time i've said that phrase,
but do i really hate u??
i'm sure u got the answer..
the onl thing that keep playing in my mind for now is when r u going to go away..??
i mean, forever...
i know n realize that u r not ok to see me "like this"...
the behaviour of mine..
which make u sick day by day..
but i just can't stop from being like this as long as u not dissappear forever from my life..
u might see me smile..
"pretending" to be happy..
but deep in side my heart..
do u ever know how suffer i am..
how misery life i've been through all this while..??
did u ever know that..??
did u..??
so..
please stay away from my life..
i really wish that i could have somebody to tell u all this..
somebody who can make u stop all this..
u got someone care for u rite..
so please stop make it hard for me..
will u..??